Sunday, June 24, 2007

I forgot that my ipod is formatted for a mac, and so I can't use it with my laptop unless I've got an audio cable (which I haven't found yet). hypem doesn't work at the office and pandora doesn't work outside of the US. My brother is sending me mp3s in email so that I don't lose my mind utterly.

It is Sunday. Slow and hot and the grass is overgrown just days after being cut. The roof of the big house is a red oil slick. Every window is closed, and every curtain drawn. Security guards pass by on the half-hour.

Joseph from Kenya is, I'd say, 50 years old or so. He says "very good" like it is going out of style. Every evening, he gets absolutely hosed and instructs us on the finer points of pool while we grit our teeth and smile and obey. He misses most of his shots.

Anyway. On Sundays, he walks maybe 20km around the city and into the hills. He says that he's only been joined once or twice, but no one seems able to stand the heat. Of course, because I am insane and think that I can keep up with a Kenyan, I said, I THINK I SHOULD COME WITH YOU!

We started out at 7am, and it took about 45 minutes to reach the edge of town from the compound. The road where we live is well-paved and lined with opulent homes. It dead ends onto what closely resembles a gravel pit - I cannot understand how people are able to ride their motorbikes and rickshaws without toppling over into one of dozens of potholes that are here and there. We passed by the little market where I buy my bread and peanut butter (breakfast everyday). The air was still and phosphorescent, but we exchanged a glance as clouds rolled in, hanging low over the hills ahead.


I should mention that these hills veil a history of grief and separation, loneliness, grotesque violence and anger. They keep memories that a tsunami's destruction cannot wash away. During thirty years of conflict, many villages lost most of their young men and some women to a separatist movement that would keep them away from their families for years at a time. They lived in the hills and fought a war that was largely ignored by the rest of the world.

We took a step and rain began to fall - slowly at first, and then it covered us. I said, let's keep going. Joseph said, so long as you can. So, we walked out past the last house and began our ascent into a tangle of vines on a dirt road that led to the base of a radio tower. The view was spectacular - framed with bearded trees and the disciplined moaning of minerets penetrating a light fog.


We walked down and could barely see through the rain, and so we stopped at a little shop for a glass of coke. Aceh is positively crawling with military personnel. A group marched past us, singing loudly with guns held to their shoulders. I imagine their lives have been similarly spoiled by so much strife.

Since the rain wasn't giving up, we walked on and found a local swimming hole, quite literally.


People generously waved for us to come in out of the rain as we passed, but each time we'd smile, shout thanks and continue walking. It was 10am when we finally made it back. Being kind of a rustic girl, I came to Indonesia wearing the only pair of shoes that I brought with me. After a 3 hour hike in the rain, you could see right through them.

This all happened exactly a week ago, and since then I have bought two new pairs of flip flops and have been nursing a pulled muscle in my right foot that is causing me to limp and, more importantly, preventing me from playing Rugby.

So it costs me about $1/min to call out of here, and my connection is crap so Skype is out. If anyone wants to call me, my cell is

(+62) 813 6055 1035

I'm 11 hours ahead of anyone on the East Coast. You can call using Skype for like 15 cents a minute.

Over the course of writing this entry, I've discovered that last.fm has a radio plugin. Smiles.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

i just don't know what to do with myself...

how we pass time at the bar:

"so, if ethanol uses gasoline and biodiesel is incredibly inefficient, what's left?"

ponder, ponder..

"methane."

"methane?"

"as in, biodigesters? as in, pig shit?"

"as in, farts."

"farts."

"you're suggesting that we sequester our farts."

"i'm suggesting that we certainly have enough gassy people to keep america going at least for awhile."

Saturday, June 16, 2007

less is more


music drifts on the back of a smokey evening haze. i am sitting outside of my cabin with one leg draped over the arm of a wicker chair the color of sand and reading intently the third part of Milan Kundera's The Unbearable Lightness of Being. each night at dusk, minerets announce the muslim call to prayer. the hot breathe of the wind carries this beautiful lilting sound to every last stretch of human construction, accompanied by the howling of dogs.

"Sabina was now by herself. She went back to the mirror, still in her underwear. She put the bowler hat back on her head and had a long look at herself. She was amazed at the number of years she had spent pursuing one lost moment."

the sky deepens and trees become lightheaded, pirouetting coyly about the manicured lawn. the wind bends and coils, whistling its faint regard for the world below.

Friday, June 15, 2007

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

after running around town for over an hour and locating the ONE WORKING ATM IN ALL OF INDONESIA, i was finally able to jet on over to the Konica Digital store where a very nice Chinese man sold me a working memory card, 1G for $16. no kidding. in this remote archipelago, in this land of silent sleeping hours, technology ought to fetch a high price, no? instead, my meager checking account balance is a fortune, unless i go looking for black market spirits.

we've finished the newsletter after logging almost 40 hours each in 3 days. it is a thing of aching beauty, this five page spread of constricted news reporting. every word carries the agony of hour-long debates over language, semantics, comma splice. freaking oxford comma. what the hell is that anyway?

i've come by this memory card in due time today. the Governor of Aceh is flying to Lhokseumawe for the inauguration of Aceh Utara's recovery forum and has just enough extra seats on his plane so that we get to go along.

Last night, over a few sips of bintang and baileys, we (silvain, luca and i) played backgammon while queen blared in the background. banda is a bit spare in evening entertainment, but we make do.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Today we worked for 11 hours straight. We were tasked on Saturday with redesigning and laying out the agency newsletter, a seemingly menial task. Or at least that's what i thought until this afternoon when The Boss came in and we learned all about the political subtext of every word that we were writing. The Boss is a brilliant man. The Boss is trained in neuro-linguistic programming and so can always tell when you are lying. he is a highly trained negotiator. He will talk your ear off about philosophy, but he has some very interesting ideas about social contracts and the human aesthetic.

So it seems that I unknowingly bought an incompatible memory card before I left. It will be a day or two before I can get to the one electronics store that I've located, so I've been begging other people's cameras. Thanks to Matt, I have managed to score a few prime pics. We spent yesterday afternoon driving around the tsunami-effected areas in Banda Aceh. I've posted a few pictures. I hate how you can't change the format after you upload.


This is the coastline out near the beach and one of the most affected areas of Banda Aceh. Man, these pictures being centered is killing me right now. It's 12:44am, and tomorrow will be another very long day. I just can't pull myself away from this, though.


A boat in the waterswept bog. The wave carried saltwater, obviously, and a secondary though seriously profound effect of this was that rice paddies (these should be freshwater) were tainted and rendered useless. The environmental focus here has always been on forestry, but hopefully that will change in the future.


Houses are built in little clusters, sometimes just feet away from the brief outline of a previous foundation. Though many people still live in barracks, this place seems to show signs of life going on. Most houses out this way (we're about 100 meters from the water at times) are raised. Our driver pointed frequently: "Chinese", "Turkish", "Canadian" to indicate their origin. There have been many complaints of slow progress. The two largest sectors of the economy are agriculture and oil/natural gas. You can imagine which infrastructure needs were first addressed.


While working on the newsletter this morning, I reviewed a cd of agency photos taken about two years ago. I believe they were part of an initial assessment. The images were incredibly grounding, and it is amazing to see how people who are essentially living in a graveyard have managed to rebuild their lives even to some extent. They rebuild their homes with the help of various organizations. Many people don't even know where their loved ones are buried and have to guess when they go to visit a mass gravesite. There are three such sites in Banda, and we stopped at one yesterday. Our driver pointed out to us where people of different ages were entombed. Babies all the way to the right.

I wish it were harder to be here. It doesn't seem fair to be so far afield from the grief that these people must feel. I'm writing newsletters and reading papers and even helping to craft strategy, but none of it is anything for the here-and-now. I am a collection box of experiences that others, my parents and family and friends, have donated somehow. I keep waiting to be just a little useful.

Friday, June 08, 2007

selamat pagi means good morning

we've adopted a cat. he's a skinny little stray kitten that we've named vagoush (meaning good) because it's one of the few words that we now know. i'll post a picture of him along with pictures of other things soon, but my camera's memory card doesn't seem to be working right now.

we spend most of our time in one of two compounds. the compound where we work has air conditioning in spots and a covered patio behind the main offices where work can be done while enjoying the humidity. the other compound is a collection of offices on the grounds of a substantial urban estate. inside the main house is an empty ballroom with one wall inset. a fabricated stone structure, a few little bridges and some cheeky vegitation fill it out. when the house was occupied, the whole thing was an indoor fountain. when i first saw it, i just stared up in awe with drool forming around the corners of my mouth. there is also a bathroom that we have dubbed the saddam hussein bathroom for its marble floors, gold fixtures and for the massive jacuzzi smiling up at us whenever we happen inside in the late evening to relieve ourselves in between sips from a can of this or a bottle of that.

banda aceh is a phase 2 area. interns are only allowed into phase 1 or phase 2 areas, and so most of the rest of aceh is off limits for us until the phase is downgraded. still, drivers take us most everywhere. i'm finding this a bit irritating, though the drivers are all incredibly friendly and willing to talk. but i'm observing a distinct division between foreigners and acehnese where most aid workers from agencies seem to tote around in SUVs with massive rods attached for radio communication. It hasn't been long since aceh was phase 3 and there were checkpoints and various problems to navigate. about a year ago, there was an incident at the compound where we're staying. drawing from an anonymous text message, the police attempted to invade the compound when the gate was opened to allow a car to leave. the claim was made that "drug parties" were being held by residents, and the security guards stood arms akimbo to resist their entry. they eventually left - they aren't allowed to enter in the first place. now, the peace accord has been in place for over a year and seems to abate the tension. no one knows if it will hold when foreign aid workers leave.

still, the days feel long and lazy. we work for about ten hours monday through friday and for the afternoon on saturday. it feels amazing to be doing this, though i'm still not sure of what impact i'll get to have. we're working on a project now to develop a community planning mechanism that will begin its operation while the recovery phase is underway. it's fairly incredible - the other day i suggested that we take steps to define community in terms of both resource and social linkages, and i was actually listened to! horray!

alright. to the store we go.

Monday, June 04, 2007

80 degrees and counting

Right now, it's just after 9am and the humidity is at 92%. Not that I am complaining. It's barely 80 degrees, and it's supposed to rain later.

Yesterday, three days of travel culminated with my arrival at the Banda Aceh airport around 12:30pm. It was actually better than I thought it would be. Aside from the inevitable fatigue, the pounding of my sinuses against my brain, and the fact that I can now hear out of only one ear (my head is being held hostage by this damn cold), traveling was actually relatively relaxing and fun.

The first flight seemed to go quickly until the final descent when my ears began to pop unbearably. This would continue until, well, now. I'm going to the medical clinic in about an hour to see what can be done. I took a sleeping pill on the second one, so I don't have much memory of it. The third was equally as uneventful. I met some people from MercyCorps on the last flight. A couple with their two young children who were coming back from a month of annual leave in the states. They've been living here for over a year now, and the kids (they're around 3 years old) speak Bahasa Indonesian.

The Singapore airport is very nice, by the way. There are two transit hotels in the terminals, a spa, swimming pool, gym, movie theater, and nap and shower rooms. Prada. Gucci. Cartier. I napped for about 5 hours on what could be likened to a very wide and low massage table, showered in the morning, and grabbed a few cucumber sandwiches from the lounge on my way out.

Nevertheless, the high point of the weekend came when I got to Medan yesterday morning and peed in a squat toilet while simultaneously holding all of my luggage. I have never been more proud of myself.

In Banda Aceh, many of us from the office are staying at the World Food Programme housing campus. We each have a little room on a raised deck platform, our own bathroom complete with a hot shower (which, upon seeing, caused me to do many acrobatic tricks), REAL WINDOWS (i.e. no bugs), and a flat screen tv complete with cable hook-up. The glass door slides open and I walk outside to be met with a warm and quiet breath of air and large, feathery palm trees set against a cerulean sky.